i feel like i don't want to be here. there is no point for me to be here. nothing seems to be right. i want to leave, leave everything. i don't want to live here, i don't want to be alive. i don't know what to do with myself. no one takes me seriously anymore. there aren't any short fixes that will help right now and there is no point in trying. why not just let go. you're here, you go through it, and you die. why not just go faster?